During this time of transition and redefinition in my life, I have come to appreciate time alone. Especially after living in a house of five guys for nearly an entire year, this is a welcomed change. Whether its spending time on my deck, at a coffee shop, or in my room, having quiet time to myself has been refreshing. To reveal TMI, as I write this, it's Friday night and I'm in “Northstar Cafe” in the Short North by myself. I'm listening to Nick Drake's album “Pink Moon”, I am typing away at this blog, and I honestly would rather be almost no where else. It's a refreshing feeling.
My hope is that out of this time, I will be able to rediscover a part of myself that has become consumed with a 24/7 sense of obligation to others, and a 24/7 schedule of dealing with my social life's dysfunctional ways. I'm ready to put these things to bed, and move on. My past experiences are over, it's time I learn from them, and create some new ones in light of my past.
When I first moved to Columbus to go to Ohio State University, I spent a majority of my time alone. Not to say that I didn't deeply desire friends at this time, but I look back and see a strong sense of independence and a time of discovery within myself. This is a very fond memory of mine, and my hope is to find another sort of discovery within myself during this time. I'm not saying I'm completely independent (for example I still have access to my parents credit card), but it's comforting to know that I'm capable of being alone and being satisfied, not forever (a wink to the ladies ;) , but at least for the time being.
-Travis
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